Monday, September 27, 2010

Hey friends,

A sweet momma shared this video with me. After you watch it, scroll down to see my own reflections of motherhood. Enjoy!



My Reflections of Motherhood:

Let Go of Control

Take it One Day at a Time


Till next time, let your light shine!

Blessings, christen
Read more ...

Monday, June 21, 2010

4 Superdad!

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!  I know several of you said that you picked up Fathered by God, either for yourself or a loved one, I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did.  Friday night we had free tickets to see Toy Story 3 and we absolutely loved it - I am a sucker for any Pixar film, but Toy Story 3 really was amazing.  For those of you that don't know, I LOVE movies.  It really is one of my favorite things to do and it is something that I look forward to sharing with the girls one day.  While we ate dinner Friday night, I kept thinking to myself that in a few years I would be able to take the girls to movies like Toy Story and how great it would be.  Now that we have children I am naturally more aware of them in public and it was quite funny to see how many little kids would cry during a funny moment in the film just because one of the characters was green and it scared them...simply because it was green.  Quote from the little girl behind us, "Daddy, make the green man go away, I wanna go home!"  It's funny how you never imagine those moments when you're daydreaming though, I suppose I have a lot to learn, haha.

Saturday we woke up bright and early and went to see the girls first thing. Out of eight feedings a day, they now get to attempt the bottle once a day.  They don't really have it quite down yet, but it was encouraging to see them try.  Getting to hold the bottle was a great experience - I actually felt like I was able to provide for them.

Feeding time with Adeline.

Also, we recently got to hold both of the girls for the first time.  Up until now, we could hold either and switch, but we haven't been able to hold both - one in each arm.  If you can't tell by my face, it's just as difficult as you would imagine to hold twins.  Adeline would start to roll over so I would lean the other way to hold up Adeline and next thing you know Maralee is sliding off my arm too!  Practice makes perfect, and I look forward to lots more "practice."



After visiting the girls, Christen surprised me with a kayaking adventure.  Going down the Coosa River is something we had often talked about, but never made time to do.  So we packed a lunch and set off down the river.  It was a beautiful day and the water felt great.  It is always such a renewal to get out and experience God's glory first hand.  Sunday, my family came up after Church and we were able to celebrate my first Father's Day together.  It doesn't matter how old you are, it's always great to see your family.

John, Sondra, Gunter, Kari Beth, Christen, and Raleigh Price

Along with the great pictures of the girls to cover my office with, Christen managed to get me a very special Father's Day gift.  If you have ever been around me for more than an hour, you know about my obsession with superheroes - so, without further adieu, I give you...


Superdad!  A father has no shame.

Again, I hope you all had a great Father's Day weekend.  It's not too late to tell your Dad that you love them, and if you are a Father, let those little ones know how much they mean to you.  Kayaking and T-Shirts are nothing compared to these.


Happy Father's Day!

-Raleigh
Read more ...

Thursday, June 3, 2010

3 The Facts

Friends, I apologize for such a late response to the post on Monday.  The past couple of days have been filled with tons of feelings and it has been hard for us to put into words exactly what we went through.  I sat down yesterday for three hours trying to come up with a post that would explain what happened and also to explain how I felt.  Writing the day down on the blog made it seem like it was nothing when it actually was something that is still on my heart today.  I appreciate the support that we have been given by all of you - trust me it has helped far more than you will ever know.  But, sometimes I feel like nobody truly understands what I am feeling unless they have been in my place.  I know we must all feel that way at times....like we are going through our trials all alone.

As most people were enjoying their day off from work, we received a grim phone call from our doctor saying that Maralee's veins were no longer taking her I.V.'s and she would need to go to Children's to have a surgical procedure done.  Maralee has been on two different antibiotics, one for her staff infection and the other for her yeast infection. For her to be given these medicines, she has had to have two different I.V.'s because they can not be mixed into the same vein.  Since her birth, she has been stuck in all possible locations - heels, legs, arms, even her head.    The nurses had been warning us that it was possible for the meds to break down her premature veins.   On  Monday, they made several last chance attempts to stick her - they even went as far as to shave her little head in spots to get a prick - but nothing would stay.  Her veins were so weak that the I.V.'s were literally falling out.  So, the doctor told us that Children's would need to come and get her so they could do a surgical procedure for her to have a method to permanently receive her medicine.  Basically, they would need to cut an incision into her neck or leg so the medicine could flow directly into the stronger veins  that are found deeper within the body (very similar to a "port" for cancer patients to receive chemotherapy). Of course she was going to need two incisions because of the medicine - the emotional side of me could only think of the fact that one of my daughters was likely now going to have two large scars on her beautiful little neck.



Soon, we were heading north to meet our girl at the hospital located in downtown Birmingham. We weren't sure how long she would be staying at Children's so I packed enough clothes for a week and Raleigh decided he would stay the night and then decide if he needed to head back to Montgomery.  It crushed me at the thought that I wouldn't get to see Adeline for a couple of days but I couldn't bear for Maralee to be all alone either.  So, Raleigh's mom came to stay in Montgomery with Adeline and we went to Birmingham, along with my parents for support. Driving on I-65, I thought it was slightly ironic that she was being treated at Children's because that hospital was one of my accounts when I worked at the American Cancer Society.  After all of those visits, never did I dream that I would be visiting for my own child.  Walking through the cheerfully decorated corridor, we located the NICU and met our new nursing team.  They informed us that they would first attempt to insert a PICC (peripherally inserted central catheter) line into her and if that didn't work, which was likely, they would have to do the surgical procedure.  So we sat.  And we waited.  And waited.  And waited.  Late afternoon, we were finally allowed into the NICU to see our daughter.  It was interesting walking into a new NICU - they were the same yet very different.  It just didn't feel like home but we knew it was a great home if that makes any sense.  When we located Maralee's new incubator, we were told that we could visit with her for a little while, and then the nurse would try to insert the PICC line.  It was a relief to finally see her - I knew she was safe but it was still nice to look down and see her beautiful face.  After our short but sweet visit, we left to get some dinner so the nurse could have time to do her thing.  My parents treated us to P.F. Chang's but I wasn't in the festive mood.  It was hard to even make conversation because all I could think about was Maralee.  When our food came, the savory smell filled my nose and I realized how famished I was from that stressful day.  After eating, I felt better and we returned to the hospital.


After more hours of waiting, we were finally allowed to enter the NICU.  By the grace of God, the PICC line was a success.  Thanks to a machine that allowed the nurse to see the larger veins beneath the skin, she was able to locate a strong vein in the pit of Maralee's arm.  This process is extremely less invasive to her body and decreases the chances of additional infections.  Also, they installed a dual-PICC line which required only one insertion point.  The new PICC will be permanent until Maralee comes home, she will not have to pricked anymore to receive her antibiotics.  I was filled with gratitude for the patient nurse who searched for a strong vein for hours and my heart lifted when I saw Maralee's sweet face.  She looked tired and I could only imagine the stress her body endured that day.  After telling her how much we loved her, we finally left the hospital late that evening to crash on a borrowed bed.

Tuesday morning we received a phone call saying that the line was still good and she would be heading back to Montgomery!  We were so thankful that the trip ended up being shorter than we thought and that soon she would be reunited with Adeline.  When we entered the doors of Baptist East, we felt like we were coming home.  It was a joy to see the girls together again and to see the friendly faces of all of the nurses that we have come to love.

Thank you friends for your continued prayers.

Till next time, let your light shine!

Blessings, raleigh and christen
Read more ...

Monday, May 24, 2010

14 Cloud 9

"Those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting" -Psalm 126:5

Oh, my goodness, I have the greatest news to share!  This weekend was the best it has been in a very long time.  On Saturday, the girls' nurse called and told us to make sure we brought our camera with us when we came to visit.  She wouldn't tell us why so I was itching to get over to the hospital.  I tried not to get too excited or think too much about what it is we would need our camera for, but my thoughts were that we would see the girls without their CPAP breathing machines or that they would be sharing the same incubator.  When we arrived, the surprise was so much more than I thought it would be.  As we scrubbed in and walked to the girls room, I was shocked to see the nurse holding little Adeline in a sweet bundle.  I looked at them in disbelief and they told me that I could hold my little girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh, what a joy!!!!!  I am not kidding, Saturday was by far one of the greatest days of my life :)  She was wide awake and stared at me with these big dark blue eyes.  After I got my love from Adeline, I got to hold Maralee as well.  Raleigh and I were in hog heaven this weekend.  Holding them made this whole experience even more gratifying and real.  God is so good to us!!!!  Thank you friends for your prayers....I know they have helped the girls make progress on this difficult journey.  I have a ton of pictures to show you so I hope you enjoy them as much as I do!!!!!!


Our first family photo!  Raleigh, Adeline, Maralee, Christen

Getting to hold Adeline for the very first time...she was light as a feather!
I will never forget looking into her eyes for the first time!  It made me really feel like her mommy!!!!
Meet Miss Adeline :)  
They are still developing their "baby" features and I think it is too cute that they look like old ladies right now with their breathing tubes :)  
(The tube in her mouth is her feeding tube)
Proud Daddy :)  
Raleigh holding Adeline for the first time

I love this picture!  They look identical to me!!!!

Me and Maralee
Their little toboggans were still so big on their heads!
Maralee was a sleepy baby 
"You had me at hello!"
Raleigh is already so in love with his little girls!!!!
We are proud parents, yes indeed!

Till next time, let your light shine!
Blessings, christen
Read more ...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

5 We must protect this house

Today has been an interesting day.  It seems that the Price house is a little on edge right now.  Yesterday, our neighbor's house was broken into.  Robberies can happen in any city but it really makes you aware of your surroundings when it happens in your neighborhood.  What makes it scary is I was home alone when it happened yet had no clue until Raleigh's mom came home and she saw our neighbor.  Today, Mrs. Price and I decided to go out to eat for lunch and Raleigh calls me minutes after we left saying that our house alarm was going off.  We race back home and start blaring our horn outside of our house.  I guess we thought we would be scaring off the bad guys but it ended up just being a false alarm.  I am glad because if I had seen a bad guy run out of our house I do believe I would have had a heart attack and the horn would not do us any good!!!!!

After that scare, we ate some lunch and then headed to the hospital to see the girls.  Our amazing pastors met us at the NICU so they could pray over Adeline and Maralee.  After scrubbing our hands up and down, we walked into their shared room with 17 other little ones and started to receive the updated report from the nurse and doctor.  Turns out, the little infection that Maralee might have is actually a real staff infection.  The doctor told  us it could be caused by the ventilator tube that is down her throat right now or it could have been passed on to her from any of the doctors, nurses, etc. that have been checking her in the hospital.  She has started on antibiotics but since she has this infection she is now on quarantine.  There is a big red box around her incubator and this is to show that anybody that touches her needs to wear gloves and a sterile hospital gown.  This also means that she will probably be in isolation until she gets to go home. 

That was hard news for us to hear.  All in all, this is something that is common around the hospital but it is just an added thing for Maralee's body to fight.  It is taking a lot of willpower to not be angry at this situation.  This almost seems like something that someone else gave her; not something that was caused by her premature birth.  It is so easy to place blame on this unknown person that accidentally gave her this infection but I am starting to figure out that I can't go down this road of pointing fingers.  Through their lives, many people are going to accidentally cause harm to my children.  As their mom, I need to just go ahead and forgive this person and pray that healing will come.  As always, this is easier said than done :)

Friends, it pains me to see my little girl going through so much.  I do realize that God is taking any discomfort from her little body right now and whispering sweet things to her, but it kills me to see that red line around her "house."  I know that the red line is keeping the bad guys out but it is also keeping me out.  I want to protect her, to hold her and tell her everything is going to be alright, but even I, her mom, can't get close to her.  The little privilege that we had of touching her has been taken away and now we have to fully trust in Jesus' love for Maralee right now. 

I don't think I have told this story yet, but Maralee's name was the first name that Raleigh and I thought of for the girls.  We loved the idea of combining family names into one new name.  Maralee's name originated from my Paw Paw, Marion Jackson  and Raleigh's Nan Nan, Okalee.  My Paw Paw has always been someone that I have admired.  He has such faith in Christ and has the lines on his hands to show his labor in life has been for the Lord.  My Paw Paw has always been on the smaller side but boy could he run back in his day!  His nickname was Jack "Rabbit" and he ran track and played football for Auburn.  Raleigh's grandmother is also someone to admire because she has shown such strength for so many years.  Her husband died of a heart attack when Raleigh was young but she continues on with her life.  She cooks, goes to work, and has even learned how to use the computer. :)  She is truly a woman of noble character that knows how to keep her family together. 

Since we chose Maralee's name first, we decided to give it to Baby B.  It was our way of making things fair for Baby A.  Looking at both of my girls, I know that their names already fit their personalities.  The name Adeline reminds me of "Sweet Caroline" and I think she looks so sweet and peaceful laying in her incubator.  She doesn't move much yet she loves to hold our hands when we touch her.  Inside my womb, I always felt Baby B kicking and squirming around and Maralee is obviously that baby now.  She is a little fighter and she isn't going to let this yucky mess get the best of her. 

I look down at Maralee and she reminds me that I need to be a fighter too.  I need to be strong and show courage when I get these kind of reports.  It is so hard because I feel like the devil is using her to get to me.  He knows that we thought of her name first so he is attacking her harder than Adeline right now.  It is symbolic to me that the line around her incubator is red.  The color red can easily be associated with satan and I just pray that God's angels are inside of that red tape blocking out the arsenal that he is throwing at our baby girl.  This is truly a war that we are caught in right now. 

This afternoon, riding home in the car, Mrs. Price reminded me of the battle of the good and bad angels over Moses' body.  Deuteronomy 34:6 tells us that the Lord buried Moses and to this day no one knows where his grave is.  God buried him so the devil couldn't use Moses' remains against God's chosen people.   Hebrews 3: 1-14 tells us,

"Therefore, holy brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, the apostle and high priest whom we confess.  He was faithful to the one who appointed him, just as Moses was faithful in all God's house.  Jesus has been found worthy of greater honor than Moses, just as the builder of a house has greater honor than the house itself.  For every house is built by someone, but God is the builder of everything.  Moses was faithful as a servant in all God's house, testifying to what would be said in the future.  But Christ is faithful as a son over God's house.  And we are his house, if we hold on to our courage and the hope of which we boast.  So, as the Holy Spirit says: "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the desert, where your fathers tested and tried me and for forty years saw what I did.  That is why I was angry with that generation, and I said, 'Their hearts are always going astray, and they have not known my ways.  So I declared on oath in my anger, 'They shall never enter my rest.'  See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God.  But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.  We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first."

Friends, many of you have been so sweet and encouraging to me as I go through this situation.  I am no superwoman, I am just a girl that became a mom and is now trying her best to hold things together.  I have to be faithful...I am nowhere near Moses, but I have to be a faithful servant to God's house right now.  I can't have a hardened heart during this situation, I have to have courage and faith in Christ.  I thank you for your daily encouragement and am so thankful for Today because it is another day that I get to share with these beautiful little girls.

Below are two pictures that I wanted to share.  In the first picture, the tube that is going through Maralee's mouth is the ventilator.  Please pray that she will start to breathe on her own so she can go back on the CPAP that is going through her nose in the second picture.  This device allows her to breathe better.  We need to pray that both girls will get on the CPAP quickly so they can start to digest their food.  Praise God that all other reports are looking good right now. 


Till next time, let your light shine!

Blessings, christen
Read more ...

Friday, February 5, 2010

2 Prayer Request

Friends, I have an urgent prayer request.

Our sweet friends here in Montgomery are expecting their first baby in early May. Last night, the mother's water broke and she is at the hospital. That is all I know at this time but I would like to ask you all to join with me in praying for this precious couple and their baby.

Pray that they rely on the Lord's strength. Pray that He is skillfully guiding the doctors as they decide what to do. Pray for the father to be a mighty rock for his wife. Pray for the mother to let go of all of her fears and anxieties and to completely trust in the Lord. Please pray for that tender child that God took time to form in his mother's womb.

Thank you friends...I will keep you updated.

Till next time, let your light shine!

Blessings, christen
Read more ...

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

"Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:3-4

How many times in life have we wanted something? Wanted something but never thought it would become a reality? Never really believing in it...never allowing ourselves to fully trust that He can make that desire happen if He so chooses for that to be a part of our purpose in life?

Friends, what I am about to share with you is living proof to me that God is in control of my life. It shows me without a shadow of a doubt that He loves me and hears my prayers. Not only does He hear them but He answers them on His time; not mine.

After Thanksgiving, Raleigh and I found out that I was pregnant! We were beyond thrilled and decided to tell our families at Christmas. It was such a special moment to share this news with the soon-to-be grandparents. In the midst of their excitement, we made them promise not to tell anyone until we went to the doctor to confirm that everything was going smoothly. With it being my first time pregnant I really didn't want the whole world to know we were expecting until that point. Well, this past Friday we went to the doctor and everything checked out great. It was so neat to hear a heartbeat and to finally be able to tell our friends! Our doctor scheduled us to come back on Tuesday to get an ultrasound.

So, yesterday we headed back to the OB office expecting to see this itty bitty peanut shape on the screen. As the ultrasound technician squirts the goo on my belly, Raleigh and I look at each other just so thrilled at what we were about to see. Well, she starts moving the wand over my belly and up on the screen is more than a peanut. It is an actual shape of an itty bitty baby. And, as we look closer, we realize that we aren't seeing just one shape on the screen. The technician looks at me and says, "Do you see what I see?" I look at her and say, "Is that what I think that is?" She says, You're having TWINS!!!!! Raleigh and I just can't contain ourselves at this point and we just burst into laughter saying over and over again, "Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh. This is crazy. Wow. I love you. Wow. This is crazy."

It was truly one of the best moments of my life. It was so cool to see their little features. Below are some of the ultrasound pictures. Both babies have great heartbeats and their due date is July 24th.



Not only has God blessed us with a child but He has given us two! And the best part of it is I have always wanted twins. That has been a desire of my heart since I was a little girl and I would read Sweet Valley High books about Jessica and Elizabeth being identical twins. I know that sounds silly, but it is true. I am not kidding y'all when I say this but I know without a shadow of a doubt that God hears even the little whispers and the dreamy fairy tales of our hearts. Not only have I always wanted twins, but I used to say that I would love to marry an architect. Yesterday, as I was laying on the exam room table all of these thoughts came rushing through my head. It was all I could do to make it to the car before I burst into tears of His outstanding grace and mercy over my life. He has heard everything. Not only has He heard but He has listened and answered my prayers! It overwhelms me to think about how much He truly cares about me.

He is going to watch over these two bundles of joy over these next six months. Please keep our growing family in our prayers. Pray for us not to worry and to just continue to trust in His guiding hand. Pray for our families and for all of us to be a team as we prepare for these new beginnings. Pray for our doctor and for my health.

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." - Psalm 139:13-16

Till next time, let your light shine!

Blessings, christen
Read more ...

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

0 Just Keep Pedalling

As I sit on my bed this evening trying to put my thoughts into words all I can think of how to start this post is that honesty is always the best policy.

So, I'll be honest. The month of December was busy for me (as I'm sure it was for all of you) and as I was taking my time off from work, I found myself taking time off from my daily routine of being in the word of God. I love to read but I had no desire to pick up any book or devotional. You can call me a "spiritual slacker" if you will, and I'm not proud to admit that.

From my experience, my walk with Christ is like riding a bike up and down rolling hills. My journey starts out with strong legs pumping my bike up the first hill and my head speaks words of encouragement to my heart. I reach the top of that hill and I come to God in thanksgiving. Then, as I start the fast downhill spin I am just bursting with joy and a fresh spirit. But, as I continue to pedal up one hill after the next, it just gets harder for my head to tell my legs to move and for my heart to be willing to make the journey. At this point, I feel defeated and as though I will never get to my ultimate destination. So, I start to slow down. I might get off my bike and take a break, maybe walk the bike up the next hill to keep moving, but my direction is lost. I need help. So, when life gets to hard to stand, I kneel. In prayer, I cry out to God telling him that I can't do this any more, that I feel so defeated, so lost. I pray for Christ to point me in the right direction so I can reach my final destination. I ask Christ to provide me fellow travelers to help me make my journey. He whispers in my legs to get back on the bike. He takes control of my head and my heart just follows him to the finish line.

I find that the truly fulfilled people in life are the ones that have a personal relationship with Christ. Not people that claim to be spiritual, or even ones that call themselves Christians and state that they have been raised in the church. I mean people that learn that they can't do squat in life without Christ guiding their paths. Now, as illustrated above, that doesn't mean that everything is just rosy in that relationship. It's hard like any other relationships that we have. An effort has to be made on our end but the great thing about this relationship is the effort has, is, and will always be made by our Savior, Jesus Christ. When we engage in this relationship, we can't help but be fulfilled in life.

When our lives are fulfilled through Christ, we start to put that as the focus of everything that we do. I believe that this makes us better people and wonderful contributors to society. This does not mean we will always be the richest, the CEO's, or never get cancer but it does mean that we will be living our lives with the sole purpose of loving Christ and then loving others. When doing this, we start to see why we were put on this earth and how we can make the most of His purpose for our lives. We have His guidance, blessings, and love filling our spirit every single day.

I think it is easy to state that we all know people that don't have the best track record in life. People who drop out of school, don't get jobs, steal money from their friends, take advantage of their parents, have pre-marital sex only to get pregnant and then live off of baby daddy child support....the list can go on and on. We see our children, brothers, sisters, or friends making these mistakes and just watch them spiral down-hill. As a parent, I can only imagine how tough it would be to see your child go down a path of destruction. *In Exodus, chapter 34, the Lord spoke to Moses on Mount Sinai. As he passed in front of Moses, he proclaimed, "The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished." (Exodus 34:6-7)

**In this verse, a key phrase to focus on is "maintaining love to thousands." This word maintain can be translated to guard, to protect to keep. God is abounding in love for us and he shows this to us through blessings in our lives. God never withdraws his love from us but he does withdraw blessings when need be. Parents, if you are dealing with a disobedient child, the best thing you can do for your child is to withdraw the blessing but not the love. So often, we find ourselves feeding the beast. If you see your child making a bad decision, don't give them things (money, clothes, car, etc.) that can be fuel to the fire. Continue to give them your love, compassion, and grace. Try so hard to be like God and be slow to anger and to forgive them when they hurt you. It won't be easy but who said being a parent was easy?

As I close, I just want to encourage all of you to keep pedalling. If you have to walk your bike up the hill from time to time, know that you aren't walking alone. Life is hard and it is so easy for us to take an off-road path but I challenge all of us to stay on the path that Christ is guiding for our lives. I can't wait to meet y'all in heaven one day.

Till next time, let your light shine!

Blessings, christen

*NIV Bible
**Beth Moore, Living Proof Live.
Memphis, TN. 2009.
Read more ...